4-8-24
Character defects: close-mindedness, abandonment, codependency
Grateful: my father, guitar, spiritual guidance
Today I worked on my view of rejection. When relationships end they have been a huge trigger for me. My marriage ending was really hard. Depression takes my energy from me. So I force myself to exercise. Then I ask questions to change my perspective. What did I learn from my marriage? I learned what I want in a relationship. I learned how to deal with situations as a duo and how to work with someone else. I learned to love and be loyal to another person. And learned not to be selfish. I grew from this situation. Rejection makes me feel worthless and alone and not good enough. I asked myself why did I reject people? It was mostly because of circumstantial factors and had nothing to do with the person directly. Which brings me back to the second agreement not to take anything personal and the third never to assume anything. And I move past the situation because endings always bring new beginnings. Its much worse to be strung along with no end in sight.
