Today is Christmas, Merry Christmas to everyone!! I received a message from a friend that said that they wanted to wish me a Merry Christmas, but they didn’t want to wish that to me because they thought that I may be struggling with being away from friends and family. Yes, even though it is hard to be away from friends and family, how one deals with that helps to build perseverance and value, especially, as I reflect those feelings into my own life. I understand how they might feel this way for me, and I certainly appreciate their empathy with how they might think I may be feeling, but there is nothing further from the truth about how I feel today. Let me say as I have said in previous writings that my life has changed. It has changed in ways that I have never expected it to. I believe that everything that has happened up to this point, has been necessary for me to get to a point of understanding in my life. In other words, unfortunately at the expense of hurting myself and other’s along the way, if I had not gone through the experience’s that I have gone through, I would not be able to feel how I feel, or have the experience to understand what others might be struggling with or feeling themselves. Does this make sense? I think that it is important for me to say again, that I am so sorry for the bad decisions that I have made in my life. There has never been any good feelings from the things I did. I was raised to be good, honest, morally strong and ethical. Somewhere along the way those values were weakened by my addiction to a lifestyle that I have said a long goodbye too!
Today, I am beyond grateful, and I accept and take ownership of my life and the things I have done good and bad within it. If I did not then I think that things would certainly be hopeless. Being able to understand what I know now, accepting and asking for forgiveness, then I’m able to move forward.
Everyday is a day of thanksgiving for me. I wake up passionately about the gratitude that I have for life and it continues to be a driving force of what I seek and work towards in my life. If any body that has known me in the past (friends or family) and you would like to contact me, for what ever reason, I would encourage you to reach out to me, and too talk to me about whatever is on your mind. If you have been hurt by my actions I would encourage you to reach out to me and allow me to apologize to you and let me share with you what is important in my life today, you are more important than me…!
This next year will be a good year because I have a clear agenda to continue to improving on my life. I expect to finish by the end of the year with two college degrees and I will be even closer to coming home. I hope to continuing to work hard building a company that I have started but also in helping other’s, especially when I’m home. Reaching out and helping other’s will be a cornerstone of my life!
Please, I don’t ever want anyone to worry about hurting my feelings. I welcome anyone’s feedback. As well, I have been through too much in my life, and I have a pretty good understanding of what is important: values, morals, and ethics, that I plan to live by. In other words, I’m on a strong foundation that I continue to build on.
I do miss my family and my friends, but this experience only makes me stronger!! Happy Holiday’s to you all!!
William Kragthorpe
