I have been moving for the last couple of months more than I would like to. It just reminded me that no matter what that I will never be able to have any comfort in this place. I will always have to make adjustments to the environment that I am in because I am not in control of what they do, only what I do. If it was up to me I would stay in one dorm around the people who I have bonded with and begun to build with. When you leave a dorm it is a new group of people to get used to and to learn who are the positive people I will surround myself with. I have began to foster new ties in this building with like minded individuals that I can talk about creating a plan for success with. Each day I have been jotting down my thoughts and aspirations for things that I belive I would like to accomplish to create the success that I want upon my release from prison. I got to visit with my children last Saturday and it was a beautiful visit that was fun and gave me new energy. It has been 3 years since I saw my children due to COVID-19. That has been a very difficult thing to cope with but it can build strength and patience. I have learned to have more patience in this place which will transfer directly to my life and relationships outside the prison. I choose to look at the glass half full instead of half empty. I have to work harder to stay positive in negative situations. I will be conscious about the process and document anything that I notice about my behavior towards others so that I can hold myself accountable. I want to be a positive force in a negative place. That takes alot of discipline but I am up for the task.
