Journal Entry: Scott Donald Carper-12/04/2023

Journal Entry

I recently offered advice to someone who’s grappling with the need to shift their mindset away from self-pity. This individual is awaiting sentencing and has been attempting to portray themselves as merely an observer, although they were, in fact, actively involved in the industry’s problematic aspects. This tendency to downplay their role is a common issue I’ve observed in many people facing similar situations—they struggle to acknowledge their true involvement and hesitate to own up to their culpability.

It’s crucial for individuals in such circumstances to confront their actual roles honestly. Rather than distancing themselves from the problem, they should actively engage in efforts to improve the industry. They need to recognize their part in the issues and commit to making meaningful contributions toward positive change, taking responsibility for their actions and working towards rectifying the harm caused. This proactive approach not only aids in personal growth but also contributes positively to the industry’s betterment. In short, you need to own your involvement or you will never start to truly rebuild.


I understand you’re navigating a delicate situation, but it’s important to acknowledge that even if you haven’t formally pleaded guilty yet, your previous discussions with the government or prosecution have implied your involvement in this matter. I mean as I understand it….there is no version where you are going to try to plead innocent?

If you were maintaining your innocence, the situation would be different. However, you’ve recognized there’s no gray area here. You’re either perceived as guilty or innocent according to the law and those assessing your case. Sometimes, we hope presenting a story in a particular way might soften its impact, but in reality, it doesn’t always work as expected. Sooner acceptance of this reality might benefit you.

Let’s be real—whatever version of events unfolds, it’s likely your wife will use it against you, and that’s unfortunate. But from my experience, the best approach is to accept responsibility and start rebuilding. There is no use in Trying to diffuse a bomb once it’s already gone off.

I’ve been there myself. The government accused me of being a meth drug kingpin, an accusation that was entirely untrue. I went to Mexico, I drove the car, but I was naive, seeking pain meds without recognizing the clear signs. Am I guilty of being a meth dealer? Absolutely not. Initially, I argued with everyone, saying, “”But I had no idea about the Meth.”” But no one cared, and it was the wrong focus. The government wouldn’t believe it, and only half of my friends and family believed one version or the other. Staying in that gray area was not beneficial.

Here’s what I eventually realized, and what most people come to understand while navigating the legal system and rebuilding their lives: It’s entirely my fault. I should never have gone to Mexico, attempted to buy painkillers, or lied about it.

I genuinely believe that if I had owned up, even partly, I might not have faced jail time. But the experience, as harsh as it was, pushed me to get my life together.

Being cautious in presenting your story is essential, but portraying a narrative that denies any involvement in the scam may not be the best approach. Sending something that doesn’t acknowledge your role might appear unfavorable.