10/ 21-22-24-28/ 2024
Monday I went to my Life Skills group. I saw the crm while I was waiting for Church and asked her about two victims awareness groups we’ve been trying to get on the yard. I did a quiz for college on my lap top. Then I went to art history followed by philosophy world religions.
Tuesday I worked out in the morning. I went to MAT appointment. My doctor said I got a positive for opiates which doesn’t make sense because I haven’t used anything in years. The doctor said that they get false positives all the time. Which is pretty upsetting three months before board. So I called my sponsor and he’s going to help me get the percentage of false positives on their specific tests. But I’m not going to admit to a relapse that never happened. I’ve taken denial management and have no problem taking responsibility for everything I have done in the past but this isn’t one of them. So I meditated and practiced mindfulness. My sponsor said to just give it to God. I then rewatched videos on my computer from child development before I go to oral communications and statistics. Character defects: pessimistic, monkey-mind, fair fallacy ; Spiritual Principles: optimism/Right View, Right Mindfulness, acceptance-Serenity Prayer/surrender-3
Grateful: Sponsor, support network, food sale
Thursday I worked out. Did a half hour meditation. Practiced guitar. Worked on homework. Went to communications. We had to do a group meeting in front of everyone called a fish bowl. It was nerve racking. Then I went to statistics. My tower co said he’d write a letter for me which is cool because I’ve never had one before from a co. I got my package too. And other inmates who I’m in group with who work in the medical area all talked to the doctor and said multiple people are getting false positives who are leaders in the recovery groups on the yard and asked if we could do a hair follicle test. And he said to put a slip in to talk to him. So hopefully I’ll be able to do that. It’s nice to have people willing to speak on my behalf though. Who see me day to day. Character defects: ego, insecure, fear; Spiritual Principles: 7-humility, confident, 4-courage
Grateful: Package, guitar, college
The following Monday I went to Life Skills. We went over love languages. I waited for the Chapel to open. I worked on edovo self help. Then I worked on homework until my two college courses started. Character defects: stubbornness, eagerness, shy
Spiritual Principles: open-minded-2, calm-surrender, confident
Grateful: Health, family, music
