4/12/24
Today I looked into my jealousy in relationships. When my significant other goes out and gets hit on by firefighters. I feel jealous, insecure, fear. I feel anxious. My heartbeat rises. My cheeks get hot my head is clouded. My muscles tense. Why do I feel this way? What purpose does it serve. It serves me because it fuels my codependency. Which protects me from feeling abandonment and protects my self-esteem. I no longer need this purpose because I have self-worth because I have achieved a lot in a difficult place. My sobriety, a college education, my health. I cast out my negative feelings
Character defects: jealousy, codependency, abandonment
Grateful: perseverance, accomplishments, introspection
