Journal Entry: Lerin E Hughes-01/01/2025

Journal Entry

“Life in the court was a never ending game that required constant viligance and tatical thinking. It was civilized war. Today we face a peculiarly similar paradox to taht of the courtier: everything must appear civilized, decent, democratic and fair. But if we play by those rules too strictly, if we take them too literally we are crushed by those around us who are not so foolish.” -Robert Greene

“Anyman who tries to be good all the time is bound to come to ruin among the great number who are not good.” -Niccolo Machiavelli

I guess this year I’m greatful to be going home. My goals for this year are to start my new brand of inmate lives matter. Alot of people are about the brand “fuck the feds” however I truly do believe there has to be a system in play to protect the public from predators. However I do feel as though some people are incarcerated fighting the good old politcal fights. many people have called me a political prisoner..

Whats crazy is I read in the Dentist of Auschwitz book that the worst parts of the Nazi time peroid was the Jewish community refusing the believe the Nazi’s could do worse… or be worse.. or do more.

But they did and each time they took more and did more the effected community just told themselves what they needed to in order to not fear the worst of the worse.. that came.

But had they had fought sooner the worst of the worst in history could of not been so bad. When I watch the news I really get sick to my stomach seeing real people playing with missles like they’re toys.. mindlessly testing their products to simply try them because “you always have to be better”. Sometimes I wonder whats the BEST of the end? To end the wars? To end the making of the newer more advanced technology of warfare..

When the state took my kids it showed that if a whole state can care so much about my childrens welfare why isnt that state speaking out more of the children effected in wars across the world and advocating for the end of world war?

Its crazy I live in such a world of civilized warfare and physical warfare.. The saddest part is in The choice DR edith evas Egers book.. an international lawyer was killed in Nazi Germany. I often find myself asking if a lawyer cannot save you or advocate for themselves whose supposed to save them?