Today is going i cant really complain but who cares right lol.The main thing is I’m healthy my family is well and i will be home real soon,Many cant say the same so IM BLESSED.I stared out with a light breakfast then instead of working out it was Christmas (commissary day) the unit have high morale when its time to get our food,that be one of the busiest days around here,its crazy how a few snacks,ramon soups and little debbies make the days so much better. I know now why they say comfort food because that’s exactly what it does comfort you, thankful to be able to go every time and i try to help out a few guys who cant afford it.I don’t have any habit like coffee which i don’t drink or any other addictive behaviors so a fare pretty good when x-mas comes around every two weeks. After lunch i worked out doing my usual run for 45 minutes,body squats then finished out my exercise with pull-ups, them endorphins really lifts the spirit, trust me whenever your feeling down just do a quick exercise routine i promise it may be hard while your doing it but when your done you feel elated from accomplishing a feat. I received a message from education today saying my G.E.D was verified i was pleased to see that and honestly shocked at just how quick of a process it was,I believe they didn’t believe me and expedited the wait to see if i was being upfront, nevertheless after this journal writing I’m gonna thank them and ask to make sure they note its verification in my file. Today’s Wednesday so in the Fed’s its hamburgers for lunch ,of course i stayed back and ate some tuna,having a special diet in here isn’t cheap but as i said i don’t have any vices so i don’t mind spending what i have to follow my diet etc.. The holidays are coming up soon and thanksgiving is quickly approaching, for me the holidays incarcerated is the worst times because I’m such a family oriented person and those days I’m so used to spending time with the fam, No wonder why in the cell blocks it be a depressing aura lingering. My 5 words for the day brings a lil excitement each morning sometimes i feel like Malcom X, sitting learning the dictionary lol regardless of who it makes me think of its beneficial, I always had a thing for words reading comprehension and spelling has always been my strong suit, Maybe i another life i was a sitting professor at a college and not a Prison Professor but hey some of the greatest people in the world was once prisoned ei. Malcom X, Gandhi, hell even Jesus so never judge a person for where they been and appreciate how far they’ve cam and where their going. Daily i pull up on the young guys here since I’m officially not in the young guy crowd being 36, I try to always build a bridge with the youth on their terms, So even if there playing ball or somewhere rapping i try and encourage growth every way possible whether its drop a gem on them to make them think of challenge them to learn something in a fun way sometimes i even reward them, the money spent just be a way to break barriers and who doesn’t like a good challenge? When i first came to be locked up i was 15 years old and i remembered thinking i had to have this ego about myself because i didn’t want anyone to think i couldn’t “handle” myself so i like a lot of young guys projected this tough persona, It wasn’t until years later after i unfortunately did hurt people badly and i knew my abilities that I’m put the act away. Now days i may look intimidating because of my tattoos or muscles but I’m really the most approachable guy and i try to help ANYONE nomatter race,creed or religion. Helping others in the current environment is taking very seriously people really appreciate it because often times many have already gave up on them for their past indiscretions, But like the Bible says,Judge not lest be judged and i know I’ve don’t a lot of sinning so i try daily to let my present actions be the prerequisite for my future karma,Righting my wrongs one day or act at a time. God works in mysterious ways because when you need someone to talk to,an opportunity called Prison Professors came and now I’m releasing my thoughts and even worries to the world and if it doesn’t help me (which it does) I feel great knowing it can help someone to understand what their loved one is going through during their incarceration and my words could better help them support their justice impacted loved one.Thats why i wrote my book “DROPPING MY FLAG,PICKING UP MY LIFE” because i know the power of words and know they can do either of these three things Build, Create, or Destroy. I will sleep well at night knowing I’m helping to build up someone’s confidence to escape a bad reality, I can help someone create a better life doing away with destructive cycles that lead to prison or worse death, and someone will destroy their old way of thinking and start to forge a new path to success. Upon my release i WILL double down of what’s said in my book and take my message and story all over the world helping someone who needs a uplifting, motivating words. I know everyone wont understand my choices to leave the gang but its not for everyone I’m doing it for myself and the ONE who needs to here i had courage to break the cycle, My father been to prison and now I’m sitting in prison, I have to break that chain so that my son never feel the cold cuffs on his wrist and the lonely jail cell that reeks,that’s my mission. Fredrick Douglass said “its easier to build strong children,then to repair broken men” I focused on the next generations not the peers that’s stuck with a obscured reality.
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