Journal Entry: Jordan Ashley Raske-10/21/2023

Journal Entry

Emotional detachment. Emotional numbness. Emotional neglect. It’s the #1 trauma self-defense mechanism (in my opinion). I’m guilty of this, it’s easier to not feel at all than to get hurt. Shut off all the emotions to not get angry, sad, empty, but it IS an empty feeling with no joy, love, appreciation. So, do I make myself vulnerable to experience joy and risk pain? Or do I shut off everything so my heart and soul don’t ache anymore? As a believer in God, my heart is supposed to be open, but I’m still learning to this day, not to resort to shutting off and give it to God.