Today is November 24, 2023, and as I reflect on my journey towards my surrender to the federal prison camp, I can’t help but feel a mix of emotions. The countdown to my departure is nearing its end, and each passing day brings about a new perspective.
This morning, as Vivian drove me to the office, I could see the worry on her face. She had been up all night, concerned about what lies ahead for both of us. Her care and concern reaffirmed the love that binds us together. In the car, I shared with her a dream I had the previous night. In the dream, Michael, my dear son, stood on a stage, and our entire family filled the audience. It was a proud moment, a symbol of redemption and transformation. This dream brought a smile to my face, as it reminded me of the potential for a brighter future.
This Sunday, my sister Norah has invited our entire family to her house. It will be a gathering of love, forgiveness, and unity. As I look forward to this reunion, I am reminded of the importance of family and the strength we find in one another. Despite the challenges that lie ahead, I am ready to face the unknown, believing that everything will be alright. It may be a daunting journey, but I embrace it with determination and resilience.
During my time in prison, I will have ample opportunity for self-reflection. I will revisit the chapters of my life, acknowledging the good, the bad, and the ugly. This venture will allow me to grow, to learn from my mistakes, and to strive for personal growth. I firmly believe in myself, and I am committed to doing whatever it takes to come home as early as possible. I trust that God is planting seeds within me, preparing me for a future that holds greatness.
Last night, I had a deep conversation with my spiritual guide, Sister Berended, whom I met during my last retreat visit. I am planning to embark on another 24-hour retreat, spending a full day with her at church. Together, we will discuss my path and how God works in mysterious ways to shape our journey.
Even in the face of uncertainty, I find solace in the fact that God has a plan, even when we can’t see it. Today is a reminder of the beauty of life itself. I am alive and well, cherishing the moments I have with my loved ones. Having two of my grandkids sleeping over fills my heart with joy, and I eagerly await the time when all eight of them will be under our roof this weekend. In the grand scheme of things, what more can I ask for? Everything else seems insignificant compared to the love and connection I have with my family.
As I embark on this daily journal article, I hope my words inspire you to embrace change and reconnect with your loved ones. Life is filled with unexpected twists and turns, but it is in these moments that we find our true strength. Take a moment to reflect on your own journey, the highs and lows, and the lessons you’ve learned along the way. How can you use those lessons to enhance your life and contribute to your personal development? Embrace the challenges, trust in yourself, and let love guide you towards a brighter future.
What steps will you take today to reconcile with society and make amends? How will you strengthen your connections with loved ones? Share your thoughts and experiences, and let us embark on this journey of growth and transformation together.
