It is another day we can appreciate our surroundings regardless of where we find ourselves. Another day to learn something new about ourselves and read another goal. Celebrate the things we have accomplished and actually take pride in all the positive we are doing. I know that as I take each step to reaching my long-term goal, I am excited about the things I will accomplish. It is another day I am blessed with a breath, I will take advantage of it.
Who I am and who I have always been by Fernando Cordova
Who I am and who I have always been, has been a journey to find. Can one sift through all of the learned behavior and truly find one’s self? Can one decipher what is actually right or wrong? All in all, one can search and find who they have always been, one just has to have the strength to face it.
Learned behavior from birth all the way through one’s adult life, comes with so many variations. It is said by many philosophers and those that practice mindfulness, that humans are innately good. I look at myself and ask, “What happened to me?”. Somewhere from birth to now, I lost that pure goodness. I was shown at a young age that violence is okay, that boundaries do not need to be respected, and many more things that are immoral. I was also taught to work for what I desired, to respect my elders, and many more righteous behaviors. Yet where am I supposed to decipher what is right or wrong? I can remember when I felt at peace and all seemed perfect, this was as a child. As I look through my life’s experiences I lost myself in other people’s values and I lost who I was. I have now built up the strength to face the mirror and actually admit where I changed. It takes courage to admit one’s faults and errors. As it is always easier to pass the blame on others or other things. Now, I can honestly say who I am and who I have always been.
I am a loving husband, a caring father, a loyal friend, an honest brother and an overall good person. If you looked at me or my past, you would not think so. Some would even go as far as saying lock that one up and throw away the key. We, as a society, are so quick to look at the faults of others, because it is easier than looking at our own faults. One must fight that urge and look each day to knock a piece of that wall down that hides so many of our secrets. Cleanse one’s self from all those afflictions and find peace with one’s self. Life is so much more enjoyable when one does not worry about what his neighbor is doing. I have found this in my life and I can say who I am and who I have always been.
For so many years I hid behind this well constructed set, just like in a theatre. It was such a good build that I believed it myself. I had to learn what is truly wrong. I can not allow other values to influence who I am. I had to search all the things from my past, to the things of this very moment. I finally have found the difference between right and wrong. As a society we tend to complain about the laws of the land, yet if one is gods and righteous those laws will never be a burden to us. Again it is easier for one to complain about these matters, than simply searching one’s self. There one can now say who I am and who I have always been.
In conclusion we all can find who we really are, we can sift through all of our life’s trauma and righteousness and see who we truly are. One must have the courage and strength to face these things and love one’s self. Healing begins there, then discard all that is wrong and recalibrate one’s values. Then, and only then, one can finally say this is who I am and who I have always been.
