Its been a while since i have journaled. Victorville just came off a two week shakedown and search. I try not to become angry when i feel i am unjustly punished. i know all my programing means very little to the people running this prison. I have been thinking a lot of ways to redefine myself, what is possible. I know getting out right now is not . Finishing writing a book I’m working on seems like the best way to redefine myself in a positive light. That and finishing college. I am thankful that still have the opportunity to create a life after prison.