Today is my youngest son’s birthday. Of course his mother has not answered the phone in months, her typical behavior. She goes several months without answering, then answers for a couple weeks, then back to no answers. I stand in line for the phone several times a day, focusing on the things I can control. But I cannot hide the disappointment each time my call goes unaswered. Not just for me, but for my son, Junior. I often wonder if he even knows his daddy is calling everyday, or if he thinks daddy does not care and has forgotten him. It breaks my heart knowing the pain this precious son has, is, and will continue to go through because of my incarceration. I know I am no longer the drug addicted law breaker I was so long ago. I know I am now a better version of me. But it is hard on days like today to not feel the guilt and remorse toward the pain my actions have caused all those around me. Even those I never knew of.
I thank God that He has seen me for who I can be, and that He has allowed others to do the same. All the many people who has chosen to invest in me. It has not been an easy journey. And it may not even be close to being over, only God knows the date. But today I can rest easier knowing that each day I put my best foot forward and give 100% to becoming a better version than yesterdays version of me.
God grant me the strength and the courage to never stray from the path that You have set for me. The path that leads to glory for Your name, and joy for those that love and need me back in their lives. The assurance for those that have invested their time and love into me and my success and happiness and well-being. Thank you for each and every person You have placed in my life. Please touch the hearts of those who have the ability to reunite me with my loved ones in society. MAy they have the faith to take action and the assurance their trust is well placed.
