It is the night before I surrender to the FMC Lexington Camp. My husband and I are staying overnight here in Lexington the night before, crying, talking and spending some quality time before I report there in the morning.
I have ordered some books to be sent to the prison to prepare me for release. My plans are to continue my work serving the homeless with a food truck, so I have ordered books on how to start a non for profit organization, books on returning to the workforce after prison and books on how to speak Spanish.
I have no idea what to expect in the next year and a half, but I pray I am able to learn as much as I can to be of service to others upon release, and do whatever it takes to complete my restitution.
To say I am terrified would be an understatement. My ejection fraction reduced by 15% in my last echocardiogram. I am fearful for what will happen when I get my annual dose of pneumonia this winter. I know the medical care in the prison system isn’t really good, and I am going to do everything I can not to get sick. I am going to treat this time like I did in basic training in the Air Foce. Be quiet, listen, observe and acknowledge any orders from the guards.
And I will really miss my husband and kids. So much. The holidays will be rough. I am praying they will find peace and comfort in knowing this is temporary. I will be home as soon as I am permitted.
