I am 56 years old Hispanic/Sicilian and am currently serving 10 1/2 years for distribution of Methamphetamine.The ATTRACTION of methamphetamine FOR ME was my go to self regulate/medicate.I have known i had a chemical imbalance but didn’t realize that’s what they called it until i got older and was sitting in county jail the first time and now for the 2nd time on drug charges with 2 indictments and 5 alegations.I was arrested and taken to county with a million dollar bond with the state …and later released on federal pre-trial ..during that time the prosecutor released false statements on pacer that was obviously with ill intent and twisted words in my eyes trying to cause me grief and or get me killed.I fell off pretrial release and quit checking in.I had 3 jobs i quit showing up for and dove back into the lifestyle i was living prior to my arrest. Oddly enough i went back to who i was around trying to figure out how i came to get arrested and ended up with a superseding indictment with 4 new charges leaving the same person where my first arrest started. I just couldn’t believe that as much loyalty and love that i had for this person that there is no way possible i got arrested twice leaving this person.WeLL after i sat for 18 months in county focusing on why and how instead of what now, the prosecutor wasn’t happy that i tried to take accountability BUT ONLY for my part but wouldn’t profess anyone elses.So i was denied the accountability reduction and even though my 2nd indictment WITH THE 4 ADDITIONAL CHARGES was dismissed they gave me a 7 point enhancement for those charges.(dismissed)Otherwise i would probably be out or in halfway house by now…i am 4 1/2 years in on my sentence at this time. I have been transferred twice now for a program i volunteered for BUT WONT LET ME IN DUE TO MY OUT DATE. MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENCE..I am currently in aN institution where there are more drugs in here than i ever had come in contact with out there.EVERYONE HERE HAS THEIR HUSSLE so getting into class’ is lets just say expensive so i have used my time to come up with several ideas to hopefully catch that break when i get out.Woman are so creative that i dont think they even know they are sitting on a money hill…but i do.Its hard trying to tell somebody anything when they dont listen or care..so i watch and absorb..I have always been told there is a million ways to make a million dollars and i have a million dollar mind so i continue to think ABOUT WHAT WOULD BENEFIT ME THE MOST UPON MY release.i HAD A FOOD CART BEFORE IT GOT STOLEN AND PLAN TO PURSUE THAT OPTION AGAIN WETHER IT BE WITH A FEDERAL GRANT ETC.I AM LUCKY THAT I DO HAVE SOME SUPPORT ON THE OUTSIDE AND PLACE OF RESIDENCE.MY GOALS ARE TO SELL LETS SAY UNIQUE items that i have left fortunately and hopefully get my business off the ground and publish my book which contains any and all info in regards to womans federal prisons,questions that have been asked and answers i have spent hours researching and finding either the correct motions etc.After i get myself stable then i plan on working on reunification with my daughter but i realize that isnt possible until i prove myself and everything i think about everything i have planned that is my ultimate goal .I often have to remind myself of what i am greatful for or it would be easy to get lost in the wtf’s.ANYWAYS JUST A LIL ABOUT ME AND MY ENERGY >>>
