Karris’ Release Plan
I’ve been here before and walked these yards a few times. Here’s where I find myself: I thought I conquered my faults the last time I was incarcerated. I was once on drugs, homeless, a criminal riding around stealing cars. My last incarceration I met a man who showed me my worth who made me want better. When I got released, we became millionaires together. I loved life but was wrong. I now know a better way of life. I find myself here again within these walls I worked so hard to stay out of and put behind me. There’s a lesson I missed, a lesson that I had to come back for. The lesson is this: I will always end up with nothing if I am not doing the right thing. Success is my only option. Success for me is living a life, with an attitude of gratitude by becoming a wealthy, contributing member of society. There is an entire population of women here that are incarcerated and I feel called to help. Success is being a voice and leaving my mark advocating prison reform for criminals impacted by domestic violence.
My plan to give back. Success is having healthy relationships. Success is having multiple companies for and not for profit that enable me to give back, get rich, and do the right thing. I am far from perfect, but every day I strive to shape my future and build a life that I want. I climbed up and because of bad choices, fell back down. I became a victim of domestic violence because I was seeking a life of riches and social status, but I wasn’t doing it by doing the right thing. I now educate myself constantly all day long. Through the Edovo platform, I have role models like Michael Santos, Brandon Crostowski, and Brian Hamilton who all strive to give back and do the right thing. With my past experience in business, real estate, new way of thinking, and role models, I too will be a positive contributing member of society. I’m not a victim. I am a survivor. I’ve had access to the Edovo education platform for the past 22 days. In that time, I have 80 hours and 47 classes completed. I’m eager to learn and find my avenue to better my life. Today I started the removal of 10 tattoos that no longer serve me a purpose. I am so surprised, and so happy for the help to enhance my appearances. When I was a criminal. I worked really hard on anything I did. Earning 20 million dollars in two years illegally didn’t come easy so I worked just as hard in my day to-day life to educate and build the life I want.
My goals are:
- To be released in 54 days,
- To check in with my Parole Officer,
- Get an out-of-state transfer,
- Move to Ohio with my daughter,
- Finish my culinary degree,
- Build my Convict Sauce product,
- Build my Convict Clothing line,
- Build a Stockholm Home – a place for domestic violence survivors,
- Discharge parole.
I have an urge to come back and help reform the prison system for there is a huge problem that is overlooked; every cell I have ever been in (and I’ve have been in many), I’ve met a woman who is here for some reason of domestic violence. People don’t realize what women go through, and I want to help them. Men who are abusive support women and keep them from having skills so they won’t be able to leave them. There’s a woman sitting in her car right now about to become a criminal – She is either going to kill her husband or do something illegal to make money to be able to leave him once and for all. A lot of times they end up killing them out of fear or they feel that murder is the only way to survive. The woman suffers because she now is without what she thought was the love of her life. She loses her freedom which adds to her huge amount of loss she goes through just to be the survivor and not the victim. I want to find a solution and be the other option. I want to build a compound called Stockholm Home with housing and multiple businesses, and bring these women on as paid interns who are ready to get out but have nowhere to turn. It would give them a sense of self-worth, and it would create jobs while lowering repeat incarcerations. I have a sauce I want to make and sell. Additionally, I also wish to make a clothing line using all things prison to connect families with their loved ones behind bars. I would donate 10% of all sales to educating prisoners.
I value honesty, hard work, integrity, wealth, doing the right thing, family, being self-sufficient, as well as having good credit and education. My plan to get there is to work and use the money from that to start my sauce and get that going while building my nonprofit. I plan to do that through Google for nonprofit, score.org and the other resources I have. Another plan is to enroll in a pre-apprenticeship program and use that money to live and support my daughter and I. As long as it’s legal and it’s healthy, I am OK with doing it. These days I use my time to plan for the future. I watch videos to advance my vocabulary, math skills, and any education I can receive. I live day-to-day sober, and I mind my own business. I don’t entertain prison politics. I don’t waste time gossiping or hanging out and stay out of common areas. I’m focused and 100% committed to my success upon release. I exercise daily and stay out of lesbian relationships. There is a trap in prison to use drugs, have sex and get in fights. It’s a vicious cycle to avoid – I’m making daily choices to distance myself from all the negative and to focus on learning how to become a person worthy of earning and keeping my freedom. Step one is to figure out how to help myself, then I can help other people. I know if I am sober, work hard, and do the right thing I will be able to obtain success. I want to show the world that I am worth a shot at being given a second chance. I want to be a part of something bigger, to be the change that I want to see in the world. I want to wake up every day in love with life and able to see the fruits of my labor. I have such a huge passion for helping people.
Lately, I have been using my spare time to seek out the truth. In the tangible world, my time is spent rebuilding my network, earning my academic credentials, and contributing to society. In my spiritual world, I spend time meditating and use my mind to manifest the fruits of my labor. I align my thought life with the life that I am working to obtain. I love God and I love prayer and meditation. I never knew how entitled I felt and how much complaining I did until I found a book called “The Magic” which incorporates gratitude into my day-to-day life. My past experiences that greatly influenced my thoughts would be when I joined a group of criminals that did not use drugs. My mindset changed drastically. I started seeing myself as a good criminal since we no longer ran with circles of people who used, I started viewing the world differently. I became numb to the fact a portion of the funds we gained went to funding a prison organization that used the ill be gotten gains for murder, racketeering and funding the crime I once did. In my heart, I knew I was responsible for a portion of all that was going on, but in my head, I evolved to a level to where the millions of dollars we had made, made it all OK. I had to have my own people turn on me and kick me down to nothing for me to start to change my thinking. These thoughts influenced the way I communicated by influencing who I communicated with. For the longest time, I couldn’t see that I was being used. I learned how to speak and blend in with everyday citizens, like people who work at City Hall, to obtain building permits for the real estate we acquired. We were schooled on how to blend in whether it be the United States President or the most dangerous of criminals, and how these types of criminals communicate and sound the same as a President does. My decisions and actions became my habits in that I would literally wake up, take the kids to school and get to work building for the mob – live for them, breathe for them. I would do anything to get rich and to help the mob. Also, the person I learned under had a clean record so it made it easier and feel normal. He was in the Marines for 12 years and was able to manipulate and mold me into his little helper. I think people would define me by my habits, but regardless of my intention, whether I’m doing wrong or right, I always work hard, and I always show love to those around me. My habits did become my values and it did send me where I am at. On rereflection, my choices influenced my release plan day in and day out. I’m always spending my working hours going through what is right and what I’ve been made to believe is right. I care so much that every day I wake up and play my part of the day in alignment with the greater good of humanity. I don’t want to be used for self-gain. I want to do what the creators sent me here to do and do what is right. I have about $500,000 worth of stuff that I’m not going to go get just because I got it all illegally and I can never be blessed doing the wrong thing. One of the steps I am taking to convert my adversaries into an advocate is to have my ex-boyfriend, who is now my boyfriend, on board with me doing the right thing. I’m planning on working closely with my adversaries to shine light on the domestic violence issue, and being an advocate for incarcerated individuals. I’ve always had a way of dumbing myself down by hanging out with people who are less educated than me. Since I know how to be around all walks of life, I can be the voice that helps prison reform. My values are influencing my life today by helping me seek education and find people who have been where I am and who are currently where I want to be. I am actively reaching out to them. As of this writing, I have not received a single response back, but I know I will. I know I will continue to reach out to anyone I think can help me to achieve my goals. The people I will meet in the future will have an attraction to me by doing positive things and through positive thinking. We will all have similar values because we will all have similar goals. I find whatever frequency I am on; it moves me toward the wavelength of people of like mines. My values help me frame my decisions. Avatars will believe in my future if I live by these values. I want to walk into any group of law-abiding citizens and fit in. With my new values, my new vocabulary, my introspection, and my new way of thinking I will be able to build credibility with my adversaries and my avatars. Which will help me bridge criminals to law abiding citizens. To show my commitment to my values, I set clear goals. Meeting my goals will help me influence my avatars. There is a clear pattern in prison. The way that a person adjusted in prison would influence the prospects for success after release. I saw this pattern when I read Michael Santos education course titled “Preparing for success after Prison”. I know he isn’t lying – as stated, I have been here a few times before. The time I put in a little and planned a little, I ended up getting a lot. I was previously homeless, but with a little effort and planning I changed that. I hadn’t seen or heard from my two oldest children in 10 years. I went home and changed and they now live with me. I discharged parole in one year and one day. That is record speed, especially for me who has been unsuccessful over 10 times on probation. While I was on top of the world, I failed to plan. I failed to plan for the drama that would come if the feds hit the operation we had going, or the drama I experienced because of domestic violence. I failed to plan for what my children and I would do if my significant other were to decide he was taking everything we built together and keeping it for himself. I failed to pay attention to the fact that we only deal in cash and all of it was put where I couldn’t get to it. All the hard work I did to change my life around (though illegal) and I lost it all and was back to where I started out. I sure didn’t plan to be homeless running from the sheriff’s department, and a dangerous cartel because of my existence and the knowledge I possessed was a threat to the people I used to love and work for. I came way too far to ever be back behind these walls. I chalk it up to divine intervention. While I was in jail, my only desire was to get back home and get my revenge on the people who hurt me and wronged me. I felt robbed. I had a victim mentality, and it was keeping me stuck.
I felt sure I was different than the ones around me. When a tablet was given to me, I saw the Edovo app which excited me! When out for Pod time, I asked the other women what they study and nobody knew what I was talking about. I felt fortunate to be in a cell with my new way of alone time which enabled me to learn as much as I could. I started with my healing process, realizing I needed time because I would watch masterminds by Michael Santos and I would break down crying when I watch success stories of former prisoners. I would think why did this happen to me? I would think I already made it. I was already successful. I was to upset that the law didn’t see what I was going through. I could not swallow the fact that the law couldn’t see what I was going through because everything I built was built on sophisticated crime. I went to court and they offered me 60 months with half in the state penitentiary! What! I didn’t understand. I said I am not even on probation or parole. I stayed out of trouble for this amount of time, so the DA needs to start talking to me in terms of probation and a few months of time to serve, not a year and a parole and parole terms. The DA came back and let me know that I have been shown love and yes, I will win against him in trial, but he will blame me or slam me to the wall for other things if I don’t take the deal. I know he wasn’t lying and if push came to shove, there’s plenty of crime I have committed that he could make me pay for. I started to say forget it. I have to do a little time, I’ll just use my past, my name, and my seniority and do the prison politic thing. I did just that. I moved to a part of the jail where it housed 20 people to a cage and I started practicing. While I was running the jail, I was doing it from my bed where I could be found always on Edovo. Running jail is second nature to me, I still felt empty. I am a seeker. I love knowledge and education. I’ve done enough time to where I know there’s got to be more. I spent time with the women around me, trying to spark an interest in different things and different business ideas. I’m able to reach the woman because I’ve been there. I’ve done that. I’ve made millions. I’m humble. I love the women. They appear to love me but I find nobody wants to do the work necessary to change. I am able to influence the women around me. I got transferred to the state penitentiary and they didn’t have Edovo. I was here for two weeks and Edovo came to the tablet. I was so happy because I had done a culinary arts class on Edovo and was hoping to actually go to their physical location upon release. The man who built this Edovo program was a criminal and he built this beautiful place to give people a second chance. I was so excited to have access to the education he provided as well as the contact info to Edwin. I started taking interest in the women’s stories around me, and one day it hit me. I’m back in prison because I got all that I had by doing the wrong thing. I wasn’t successful. I was climbing a ladder that was bringing me closer to becoming a lifer. No matter how I dressed it up to appear, I was associated with people who were only going to land me behind bars for a long time. I am very fortunate because I learned a solid work ethic and education that I can use to do the right thing. What I found spending time with the women around me is that a huge percentage of women are doing time because of domestic violence. One day thought hit me and I realized that I too am a survivor of domestic violence. I have the post business experience, I have the domestic violence experience and everywhere I go, the world stops to listen to me. I am here incarcerated because I was meant to be saved and I was meant to use my story and my pain to help people around me. Most people never touch the amount of millions I have due to criminal activities, and if they do, it is very rare that they survive and live when they choose to leave the mob. I am lucky to be alive, and I am lucky to have a chance to turn this around for the good of society. I’m trying to get into the Edwin program as my starting point upon my release. I didn’t plan to use the knowledge and the culinary degree I earn to model the domestic violence program I wish to open.
My mother wrote me once and told me it must be hard to leave such a crazy rich lifestyle, start over and live a simple lifestyle, but it’s so rewarding! Love, joy, and peace are so much more valuable than money! I know also that your abuser was someone you loved, and that’s painful too. You have been rescued from that so stay rescued. Between Michael Santos, Edwins’s founder, Brandon Crostowsky, and my own intuition I now know I had to come to prison not to pay for my sins. If that’s why I was here then I would be here for a lot longer because my sins are great. I’m in prison because I have been saved and shown that God has a plan so great for me that I get to right my wrongs by using my past, my knowledge and my education to be the change I wish to see in the world. I’ve learned so much, and I spent every day planning for release. I’ve written this out to have something that my support network can hold in their hands and see what I am committing to and be able to hold me accountable to doing what I say I will do. My mother has been by my side all these years and I am very fortunate for the support from her. I know it made her happy that I stayed out of prison for a while and that she could have me over to eat and spend time with me when ever she called me over. I know I have put her through so much. She has been by my side through twelve years of incarceration. She and I both know she deserves better. We also both know that I’ve gone through all that I’ve gone through so I can have the credentials and experience needed to do the amazing work that I am called to do. In dealing with me, my mother has gone through so much. She deserves to watch my story transformed to one that reaches and helps millions of people. If I didn’t come back to prison, I wouldn’t have the knowledge I need to turn this around for the better. Mama, if you are reading this, God has amazing things planned and a lot of work cut out for us but he called us because he knew that we were strong enough to do the work necessary. I know you want so bad for me to get it right and that you want me to choose life. I want you to know that I want the same and that I am doing all of the necessary planning to get it right. The battle is far from over, but as long as I am alive, I will fight every day to do what is right and to full fill my personal legacy, If I fail to plan then I plan to fail. If I have all this knowledge yet I don’t write it out then I leave myself vulnerable to falling backward. If I have all of this knowledge yet I don’t write it out then I leave myself vulnerable to falling backwards. I have to show my network who I am and what I am pledging to do so I so if I went back on my word, I would feel stupid. I need the accountability piece. I’ve come too far as a criminal that going back will always be tempting to me. I’m aware of the pull here the streets have on me. By me writing out my goals and aspirations I place a barrier between me and crime. I have words written out to remind me that no amount of money is worth the happiness and joy I feel every day being free. If I hold myself accountable to doing the right thing, I am confident that I could make 100 million legally. Also I know I could reach a record amount of people and help so so so many people. I wanted more than anything to be normal or to be like other people so badly. I would do anything to fit in. I hated that I was told more often than not that I am different. I never wanted this. I never wanted to be different. I for sure never wanted to live through a situation where people say to me that I am so strong to have lived through that. People really think I want to be the one strong enough to handle what I survived? I never wanted to be that strong, but I’m her, and I was forced to be strong and I was born different because I was conditioned to be able to conquer to fight armies and restore lives using my experience, strength and hopes. I always knew I was destined for something great. I didn’t ask for it but at this point here I am and the worst is over and I have so much responsibility to myself, my family and my peers to do the work I was to do. I was told I was going to die, and that my family would be murdered before that, so I could live to watch. I have been buried alive. I have been tortured like I was someone who was terrorizing American citizens. I am alive, my family is alive,
I haven’t come this far to not come this far. I’ve been fortunate to have a partner who shares in my goals and my dreams. We both used to do crime and use drugs together. Today we are both sober and Zach has started a legitimate job. I told him I’m just not attracted to men and using drugs and doing crime and he stopped and went out and got a job. Right now, we have $5000 saved. It’s a start. I’m not Michael Santos, and I am not being released with $100,000 saved and I definitely didn’t have the years to plan. Zack has been someone who’s been around me and who has felt negative effects from my past. He’s also able to work hard and be the stability I need to transition home. I am fortunate to have someone by my side that I love and who loves me that is at home waiting for me. We have history but we literally are starting from nothing and that’s OK because through my new eyes I see that we get to buy all new things. We get to work hard. We get to come together and use our passions to help others. It is a privilege for us to be together and to stand up together and earn everything. I know through earning, and not stealing we will be able to keep everything we acquire. I have thoughts of doubt around not having a car, bad credit, not even having clothes, but I don’t dwell on those thoughts. I dwell in the fact that I am alive and that I am able to reach out and get anything I want if I work hard. Even my adversaries believe in me and the ones I’m referring to are the ones who get paid to catch me and hold me in jail. That is so powerful to me.
There’s one certain individual who I have opened up to, and I spent hours being authentic with and I never thought about what consequences I could suffer in talking to this person about who I am or what I have done. I only expressed myself in hopes to save myself, save my family, and to make a change. He always listened. Never pressured me to talk about anything else, except what I wanted to. Where everyone else told me, I’m alone, he believes in me. Together we wanted to bridge the gap between criminals and law-abiding citizens. We pictured tearing down prison structures, and stopping all the crime that is done by carrying out instructions from inside the prison walls. People serving time in prison, have a huge impact on a lot of things going on in the streets. Law-enforcement doesn’t work to solve the bigger picture. They have cookie cutter rules. They also have to play by the set of rules, while at the same time they are fighting the war on crime against groups of people who will bend or break all the rules. Let’s face it, the police lack the inside Intel. Yes, they have people, low level criminals willing to trade information to get themselves out of trouble. They have agencies who specialize in this and that. They lack the empathy peace that can only come from being someone who lives at the top. The work my friend and I dream of doing we know, would be so huge and impactful, that we are the only two people who believe in our vision. Prison structure has been around for so long that we are now seeing lifers and people who will never come home, rise up into power and they are using people at home or in their own families to raise into these squeaky-clean criminals. These masterminds teach and mold individuals at home to become their muscle and their reach at home. It works like this: one brother is a serial killer and is sent to prison with 45 years to life. His other brother who has never been in trouble before ends up in the Marines. Both brothers shared a love for family and for money. The brother in prison networks in the prison network and the brother who is now home from the military is left to carry out the work of the cartels. It’s a new error of super criminals, and these people have no criminal record yet are connected to dangerous people. I don’t envision trying to get people to give up information I envision everyone being accountable for their own lives, and doing the work necessary to change. I’m talking about having empathy for the bigger picture. It anyways it would be so big that NBC would give us our own show but only we believe in us pulling it off. Your incarceration is not solving the bigger picture. We need more people to have the courage to come forward and say hey, I did that, I was a part of that, I want to do the work to change. We need people to advocate. We need to show incarceration isn’t working, but all alternatives could work. We need to understand how criminals think and what the motives and driving forces behind it are. We need a bridge between the two worlds. Something that looks impossible. I’ve given a lifetime of dedication to the mob and return they paid me with evil and with hatred. My own people tried to kill me and to this day I don’t know why. I only know that I am the closest any female has gotten to the operation. Also know that they would rather be safe than sorry and have me dead. I know I possess knowledge that threatens their entire existence. In some sick way I understand it. I was a big part of them so I get it. I also know I would want to help them change if I could even after everything my goal isn’t to get anyone locked up. I’ve healed to the point where I forgive them even though I know they don’t feel sorry. That’s OK. I can never go back to join them in the place they are in. I will dedicate my time and energy to use my knowledge to help solve the incarceration problem. I will save people from people like them and if they are ready, I’ll be here to help them help save them from themselves I am not the enemy. I want to love all people regardless of the pain they caused me. By me being incarcerated, I caused myself, my family, and so many others pain. I do not want or wish incarceration on anyone. I only wish to take the violence out of things. I want the person that turned on me, and that threw me away like I was nothing to know I love you and I forgive you and that I hope to be the voice that brings about change that is helpful to you. To me, and to all the people who are impacted by incarceration. What you did to me is OK. It brought me to my life calling and for that I am truly grateful. All the knowledge the mob taught me I will use for good and not for evil. If it works, I hope I can influence the mob in a way that promotes nonviolence and a life full of hard-working individuals who claim their life and live accountably. I pledged to live in a way that is in alignment with the greater good of humanity. I’m counting on my mother or brother hopefully finding the time to type this release plan up for me so I can use my plan to influence my future. I’m hoping to send out copies to my adversaries and my Avatars. I am so blessed to have a team of people who love and support me. I know sometimes we don’t know how we are going to do it but all of you are here to say let’s do it. We support you. I’m extremely blessed and grateful, thank you. I want to touch a little more in detail about my goals. Then I will send this out to get typed up.
I have been working on this plan for a while and I finally feel good about the work I have put into it. My release date will be between January 1, 2024, and January 20, 2024.
- My first plan is to hopefully get picked up by my mother, Zach, Israella, Nayeli, Sal, and Kris. – I need to meet probation in Oakland within two business days. Hopefully my release will be on a business day so I can go directly and check in.
- Once I check in, I will go over this plan with my parole officer and either ask for the ability to travel, or be issued an out-of-state transfer.
- If granted, I then will get on a plane with Zack and Nayeli and go to Ohio to enter the Edwins Program.
- In Ohio I have six months to earn my culinary degree, and a year and a half if I wish to obtain a manager degree.
- While I do my culinary schooling, I will work and in my spare time, I will be working to open my businesses.
Five years from now, I will be back inside of prison, but not as an inmate, I will be here to walk these yards to make a positive change for others and as an advocate for prison reform.
