Reflection Journal Prompt
I watched my family and friends get fast money while I was growing up and it appealed to me. The power I got to see my dad have drew me in. People respected the drug dealers and did anything they wanted. People come from all over to come hang out with these people and buy their products. When the dealers needed something done, they had ample options for people that they could call at any time that they knew were willing to do whatever was asked of them. I saw that they had all the “friends” and everyone showed them so much love. Everyone “cared” about them and went out of their way to make sure the dealers were happy and comfortable. To see how feared and respected they were was like seeing a million dollars to me as a teenager. I saw that my parents sold drugs and I had all the nice things my friends wanted. My friends families struggled but mine never had those problems until the drugs were gone. I had the nice clothes, new gaming systems, lots of fun drugs to do with my friends, anything I wanted. When my parents got arrested for distribution of meth, I saw that as a sign that it was my time to step up and take over. I had to take care of my family by any means necessary. I didn’t want my siblings to lose all those nice things they had and to struggle like I had before I moved in with them. I can transform that lesson as a pathway to success by remembering the whole story. It sounds good to get out, sell drugs, and get fast money. I can have anything I want, but do I really have it? Is it really yours if someone can come take it from you at any time because you bought it with drug money? I have to remember the part of the story that happened after all the nice things and fun. The part that happened after my house got raided and my parents got arrested. I clouded my vision with my own story at that time and didn’t see the real puishments and trouble that my parents got into. I could see them trying to change their lives but I didn’t understand why anyone would want to give up the lifestyle they were living before. Now that I’m older and can see it all clearly all the way though I have to remember that and use it as a motivation to do good and stay straight when I get out this time. I am going to do it this time! I still have some time to go but I am excited and am taking every moment that I have behind these walls to better myself in every way possible.
