Never too late
I remember that not to long ago I looked back and I said to myself that I have been under these circumstances for almost a decade , and that I have wasted so much time , if I acted different , I would have much more achievements. When I started serving my time , I felt sorry for myself . All I did was play cards , watch TV and cry often . I barely spoke English , which made it harder to engage in intellectual conversations , to communicate with others , build relationships , explain my needs or understanding instructions. A lady taught me to crochet , so I didn’t need to communicate to much , I just followed her hands movements . At the beginning it’s saved me . I was focused on creating things for my family and it’s eased my thoughts. I started to take classes so I can improve my English .At the facility that I was at there weren’t many classes or opportunities so I got bored . The more I got bored The more I sank doun and feel more sorry for myself. I started to eat my emotions and gained a lot of weight . At some point I was able to sign up for college classes . I was accepted to the non credited one’s because I am not a citizen of the USA , many doors were closed in my face for this reason. I finish second in class . Recently I have learned that the self study that I did was meaningful. Everyday I learned 5 new words in English and 5 in Spanish so I can learn other languages. I start to read books that help me shape the person I want to be and the way I think. I also discovered that when I am uncomfortable I make the most progress. I start to believe in myself again and I do things that are out of my comfort zone , like write English and ask for help from others . I am applying this days to Yale . I know that my chances are low due to my English , but I will try my best and if I fail I will try again next semester. The language barrier is a real struggle and it is not easy , but is not going to stop me . Lately I am trying to encourage other women to take themselves serious and start working on themselves , I hear a lot of comments from them like ; ” I am not smart enough” , ” I am not smart as you ” , “I am a failure ” , ” I can’t do that ” , ” it’s too late for me ” . I am telling them my story to show them that if I can do it , they can do it . I am not better then no one . It’s all about commitment , taking action , planning ahead and setting goals . I was happy to empower others and show them that it is never too late , our change can start today , we can help others make changes as well . My roommate kept saying how she is not good enough , and that her future after being a felon is to work in the food industry . I lift up my mattress and handed her books such as ; The four agreements , man’s searching for a meaning , Rich dad poor dad and Michal Santos books . I then told her that change start within ourselves . Change what you read , you will change the way you think. read about leaders , you will start think as one . Few months later I can see the change and growth in her , the time that she investing in her Books reports and with the Books she has choosing to read . she is much more confident and her self-esteem grew .
My goal for July is to sit and write 4 book reports about books that I have already read . Actions speak lauder then words
