Dreaming my freedom
in the last 6 month I started thinking constantly about me release . I miss my family so much that it hurts . My parents need me , my siblings need me and my nephews and nieces need me. I need them as well . In a lot of reentry classes we are learning that more then 50% of released prisoners return to prison .Once I am release I know I will help change those statistic. Not because I think I am better than them but because I have been preparing for my release from the moment I started serving my sentence. I am focused on learning many things and the combination of these are preparing me with the tools for when I reenter my community.
While I am working on thinking areas , communication styles , setting goals and stages of change in my current FIT program , I also investing in my spirituality and taking correspondent faith based classes to combine between brain , heart and spirit so I can come home stronger than when I left . I already created my 3 year release plan and I am revisiting often . I think because of everything I have learned I am finally able to take responsibility for my action . I used to blame everyone and everything for me being where I am . I cant change others . I can only change the way I think and act. Today I am owning my own mistakes.
There is a quote from Samuel Smiles that I like ; ” we learn wisdom from failure much more than from success. We often discover what will do by finding out what will not do ; and probably who never made a mistake never made a discovery .”
I am practicing coping skills as well , one that has really helped me lately is ” value yourself ” which means don’t be to hard on myself . Every one makes mistakes, and this coping skill focuses on reminding ourselves that it is ok to fail sometimes .We all do . But to remind my self that I am valuable and I am learning from my mistakes.
I am surrounding myself with positivity , with positive peers and keeping my own attitude positive . I am becoming a person that focuses on solution instead of the problem . I am practicing daily finding the good in situations and in other people because there is good in all of us . I am taking time make the changes in myself when they need to be changed , because it is the only thing I can do . I have no control over anyone else , I can only control my thoughts and I do it by practicing gratitude . I am counting my blessings every day and adding new ones every day as well . Today , I am grateful that my family is safe in Israel from the missiles that keep coming toward Israel .
My God will keep the land of Israel safe – Aman .
