I am constantly focusing on the future …as there is no future in the past :)except for lessons learned if you choose to see them and use them instead of hold on to the anger.I am a veteran in this concept. Despite all the trauma i have had in my life i have always chosen to hold on to the anger as it is a choice.I guess because its easier to hold on to it than to let it go.Gives me an excuse for my behaviors..”Unfortunately” I come from a long line of hard knocks before it sinks into My head and being in prison NOW has opened my eyes to things i have missed because my eyes were closed. I have come to realize that allthough i have had unfortunate things happen in my life that were definatly life stoppers, i have to let that go before i can move forward,As i have now chosen to do…like i knew what A was and i knew what C was but i seem to always have a block when it came time to get to B so in other words i knew what i wanted to do ,i knew what i wanted the end result to be but i never knew how to take that step forward. I soon realized that it was a basic learning block that i had adapted early on to block things out when i would get over stressed and i have been doing this my whole life .I just shut down and it gives me reason to give up. No matter how many times i tried to explain how my mind worked and that i needed help i never got it .Some how through this time i have grasped the concept that i have to prepare each step to be successful .Even the smallest step is SO important. MOVING FORWARD ,simply because you are moving forward I have always been told i have a million dollar mind i just have to apply it. Well i think that as i have grown older i have feelings of push come to shove (WASTED TIME WHERE DID IT GO?) and not having enough time to actually accomplish something to leave for my children to be something …someone other thaN a drug addict .So i have taken my goals i want to achieve (and this might not work for everyone) but i take the actual goal as if i have completed it and i work backwords EXAMPLE lets say i have a complete food cart business which is actually one of my goals .lets say i am running it well what steps did i need to do to get to that point ? SO I go backwords what was the menu.Where would i get what i need? what would i spend what could i spend .what would i need to do to have been able to have that business besides obtain the food cart .Talking to people who would be of help (wholesale foods etc.)I would have to design the menu, the overhead budget , the location what would be cheap what kinda license would i need where would i go to get that before i can do that what would the name be (DBA)advertising etc…so that is how i am choosing to direct my thought of what i will do when i get out ..WHO WILL HELP WITH THE KNOWLEDGE I NEED AS WELL AS FINANCIAL IF AT ALL? do i need a truck etc..anyways just a little about my thoughts MOVING FORWARD
