Hello, it’s me, I’m here:
This opening is a saying that I came up with, especially for those around me that may feel like I will never come back home or that maybe I’m just dead. I think about so many people that have lost their lives over these past couple of years and there is extreme sadness in knowing that those individuals will never be able to say those words, “hello, it’s me, I’m here.” So, I hope those of you that read my journal entries find comfort in knowing that “I’m here,” and that I’m am working hard to come home soon!
This brings me to what Michael Santos talks about so often, that is to start working hard to create a legacy, and to persevere through an extremely difficult situation. One reason that I do not write as often as I would like is because I’m at a place where there are constant lockdowns. Why is this? Will mainly because the upper management doesn’t know how to run a functional facility. Things happen here and the staff will punish everybody for something that we didn’t have anything to do with. Again, as I have said in previous entries I do not like to write about the dysfunctionalities of these institutions. I have better things to focus on than this place or these unhappy employee’s here. So for me these lockdowns are beneficial in the ability to let me study. Again, as I have expressed in earlier entries I am pursuing multiple degrees in business from a State University and a local Junior College. The time I have here is valuable time to me and I don’t waste a minute of it. Even in this place where so many people just waste time, wanting things from their family or friends, shooting the s… with their homies, or just wasting time watching TV. I don’t get it! Going to school or being involved in classes that can lower my recidivism, volunteering for the suicide companion program, even working out; it takes hard work and it takes discipline and dedication, but with those goals I will continue to persevere! I want to mention because I am proud of it: that I have accomplished a 4.0 grade average and have been placed on the Dean’s list at both schools. I have also lowered my release date, but most importantly I’m earning the respect of my peers for doing something and accomplishing something positive while I’m away.
This attitude of gratitude that I have for life, and knowing that I have better options to do better things in my life, started a long time ago. But with each additional day the hard work is paying off for a future of hope. I must credit the books that I have read by Michael Santos, and I am forever grateful for having a chance to read his books. After I read them I felt hopeful and especially not so alone in my journey. Those books set me on the path that I have now created for myself. Success is not an option it is a choice that I choose for myself! I have failed for certain choices I have made in life but I have never failed at what I have sought in life. There is a difference because the situation I find myself in now was not something I sought it was something that happened because my life had gotten out of control, and I most certainly I lost sight of my true goals. What I am saying is that I believe that there are some really good things ahead in my life and I’m excited about those things and look forward to being successful in them. I’m sorry that all of these bad things happened, I will never forget them and never repeat them! I will make the most and the best out of the life I have left. I will help any person that struggle’s: by hoping, giving whatever time it requires, and guiding them to make better decisions so they don’t make some of the same mistakes I made. If I can change some people’s lives for the better then that will make my life that much better.
I’m not sure sometimes if these journal entries make a lot of sense. I write for myself and maybe if someone’s reads these I hope that they make a little sense to the reader, but most importantly if someone reads them and it makes them think about their own life, whether they are grateful or maybe aren’t so grateful, that I can be an ambassador of being appreciative of the life you have and grateful for the freedoms that you have in your life. In other words, be happy and if you aren’t stop and take in some of the good things that you have in your life, and if you can’t find those good things then make a decision to find them and build on those things
For those of you that read these journal entries, “It’s me, I’m here , and I’m working hard on being home soon!”
Thank you.
William Kragthorpe
