This week has been very eventful, so many things going on at once in my life. I am still a companion to the disabled guy, Matthew. My daughter Lisa and I have been getting to know one another. My eldest daughter, Felecia is very close to having her first child. I have been unable to get my son Junior’s mother to answer the phone, and it has been almost 8 months since I spoke with him, but Lisa reached out and it looks like they will be able to speak and get to know each other. All these things cause a wide range of emotions, and make me long for home more than ever. Each day I make sure all my decisions are made rationally and congruent with my goals so that I stay focused and not allow these emotions to overwhelm me into a mess-up. After all these years I would think rational thinking would be habitual, but it is a conscious decision still in many instances. But one that is made, and that is a win. My past was filled with irrational thoughts and decisions, and the fact that I can live a life contrary to those days is a blessing. Adam Clausen always told us to celebrate our wins, so this is me celebrating them. I thank God each day that He has given me the strength to become the man He created me to be. I look forward to the world seeing it first hand. Whenever that day comes, I stand ready.
