Today was had its ‘ups’ and ‘downs’. I know I haven’t updated my journals in a few days and will get back to it. I was up early today and ready to prepare the chapel for the Admission Orientation. Forty new inmates arrived at the chapel, and I had the PREA DVD ready to be played. At the same time, I had a callout for Suicide Companion training, and that would take as long as the orientation would take, so I guided the counselor on how to work the equipment where the DVD was playing from. While sitting through the companion training I brought something up to the group in which the psychologist wanted to speak to me about later in person. After completing the training session, I walked over to meet with the psychologists about what I said, and they made me feel as if I did something wrong by telling them that the information that was said to me was not directly from the person in my unit so I could not confirm the validity of it, so all I had done was just keep tabs on the person and check up on him make sure he was doing okay and always asking if he needed anything that I could help him with and now that we were talking about certain things in the training I had brought it up even though this was 3 weeks old now. They did not approve of that apparently because when I returned to the chapel for work, psychology called me over to tell me that I am no longer a part of the Suicide Companion group, because I am not cut out for the work. This was tough for me to understand, because I take pride in my work, and always do what I can to protect the company/department I work for, but they did not want to even talk about it, and asked me to leave the office. Deep down, I don’t feel it was fair that this happened, but my concern right now is just moving forward and finding other ways to better myself while serving this time. The rest of my day changed for good, I went to work, prepared the chapel for the evening Bible studies, then went to the dorm for the 4pm count.
After dinner, and returning Mr.. Rivero (88 y/o man I help) in his wheelchair to the dorm, I grabbed my water bottle and headed to the chapel for the Christian Bible Study in English, then stayed for the one in Spanish. I helped the chaplain in showing the video for a new program by the name of ALPHA, that he is providing for the inmate population. Then for the Spanish I stayed to translate for him to the group how the program will work. It went well and everyone seems enthusiastic for this program, I myself can’t wait for it to start next week.
I called home, and am going to my room to wait for count and listen to the rest of the Miami Marlins game, hopefully then can turn this game around and win the game for me, and I could end the night on a positive note.
