My name is Antonina Troyer. I’m 42 years old and currently serving a 229-month sentence in an FCI for conspiracy to possess with intent to distribute methamphetamine. The honorable Judge McNeel in the Fifth Circuit of the Southern District of Mississippi sentenced me. I originally signed for the lower 25% of 360-Life but out of compassion Judge McNeel sentenced me to 19 years and 1 month. I have a long history of drug addiction and petty drug crimes such as possession, ID theft, check fraud, etc. My judge referred to them as “addicts crimes”.
I come from a very good family. I had an excellent education, love and affection. I grew up in Orange County, CA and really was afforded every opportunity to succeed in life. But I’m an addict. I became addicted to meth in my early 20’s and have been stuck in a recovery/relapse/incarceration cycle for the past 20 years. Some cycles I was able to acquire more years of recovery than others but it ended the same, nonetheless. I have survived repeated sexual assaults, survived being kidnapped and trafficked, survived a relationship with a very violent narcissist sociopath; I am now struggling to survive a 19 year prison sentence. I can’t quite wrap my head around being sentenced to almost two decades for a drug crime. Now I’m just doing anything and everything I can to come out the best version of me so I do not fail again. I’m a mother of 5 beautiful children who are now struggling to find their way without me. Failing them is a shame I do not know how to get past. I am a Christian. God has become the center of my life. I am just trying to stay out of the mess and eventually get home to my family.
