When I discovered my designation:
Yesterday afternoon, when I received the news about where I would be going – that is, Lompoc Satelite Camp.
It was such devastating news. There are no words to express how I felt at that moment – sad, bewildered, confused, scared, and not sure what was to come next.
I went into my room for seclusion and prayed. I prayed what I called ” a prayer of desperation.”
How often have I prayed a prayer of desperation in a crisis? Not often because I have never been in a crisis of this magnitude.
Right around the same time, my friend sent me an email to read a verse in the Bible from the book of
Philippians 1, verse 12, which says: ” And I want you to know, my dear brothers and sisters, that everything that has happened to me here has helped to spread the Good News.”
That verse resonates with me as if God Himself is speaking directly to me, and it brings me some consolation and peace that surpasses all understanding.
I am certain God has purposes for sending me to Lompoc that I don’t know. But he gives me a transcending assurance from Deuteronomy 31:6 – ” Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.”
This verse makes my desperate prayers a little less desperate. God will help me see the bigger picture of His purposes in His time.
I feel so much better now and more at peace with myself, assured of His promises.
I want to close this Blog with some food for thought:
” Life is a constant journey of change. Nothing stays the same – people change, situations shift, and time moves on regardless of how tightly we try to hold on. This quote is a gentle reminder that true living begins when we stop clinging to what was and start embracing what is.
Letting go doesn’t mean forgetting or giving up – it means making peace with what we cannot control. It’s about releasing past regrets, broken relationships, missed opportunities, and the unrealistic expectations we burden ourselves with. Holding on too tightly often causes more pain than the event itself.
When we learn to let go, we create space to allow for the Holy Spirit to grow. We open the door to healing, to new experiences, to new people, and to the wisdom that comes from acceptance. We stop being prisoners of our past and can experience the present more fully.
Letting go is a strength. It takes courage to trust life, to flow with it, and to believe that better things await. So if you are holding on to something that’s weighing you down – grudges, guilt, fear, or pain – maybe it’s time to loosen your grip.
Because the art of living is not about holding tighter, it’s about knowing when to release-with grace, with hope, and with peace in your heart.”Emoji