Journal Entry: Lee Elbaz-04/03/2025

Journal Entry

How many times in life did you do things that are not allowed because you were influenced by emotions?
How many times did you do things in life that you were not comfortable with just because you care about someone?
How many times you put your loved one before yourself ? probably a lot.
How many times did you did not say it all just because you are loyal ? the only one we need to be loyal are yourself and the truth
It can be something “small” like going “just” two or three miles over the speed limits allowed and then you justified it because you didn’t want to disappoint your kid with being late to his game? It is happened to all of us on a daily basis.

Here it is harder , we are obligated to so many rules , some of them do not make sense to me , however with time I learned that even the “craziest” rules are going to protect us .
One of my peers didn’t have phone minutes left in her account , she received Email from home ,telling her to call ASAP . She asked me to use my phone (we are not allowed), I refused! It broke my heart today no , however , I can not risk my clean conduct .I was mad! , what is the harm? why not be kind and help others? It is for a reason .we do not always think about it,however the rules are designed to protect us. what if she commit a crime over my phone?

We have all been in a place where we have been ask to do something that we didn’t want to do or we couldn’t do , and still we didn’t say no. I have learned earlier this week that all of the above is called SENTIMENTALITY and it is a criminal thinking error .
SENTIMENTALITY
To be influenced by emotions to action for the wrong reason.

Sentimentality applies to my growth and healing because now I know the meaning and what it is .
In the past I did it with with small things like “protecting”my sibling by not telling my parents what happened so they will not get in trouble . Like not telling a friend that the dress not looking good on her , just so I will not hurt her feeling.
In here I used to make crochet items and sale them so I will not be a burden on my parents , that are providing me at my age . I am working on this behavior by telling my self that it is wrong , the good intention or my good heart are not relevant, what is relevant is that this is the rules that I need to follow ,small or big ,it is wrong . even if our intentions are good the impact is not .