- No ICEV today. Laptops didn’t charge.
- Talked on the phone to my lower bunkie who went home recently! It was great to hear from her. I hope she is behaving and doing well.
- Wrote a letter for another friend who went home. She was like a sister to me and lived in the top bunk next to me on my right.
- Took a brain break and did a puzzle.
- Spent time journaling.
- Went to Education in the afternoon and while I was waiting for after count, when we could receive our laptops, I read Earning Freedom. I’m so grateful for this book and still can’t believe the PPT team sent it to me. A TA saw me reading it and told me she’d written PPT months ago and they never responded to her. I enthusiastically told her I had a friend contact them for me and how my profile is doing. I strongly encouraged her to try writing them again and to not give up.
The woman, who I never see smile, grinned brightly and said she would. I’ll check back with her later.
- Worked on my Release Plan. Almost done working on my Making Amends section. I feel SO passionate about making amends and have so much to say, but I have to shorten it, making it difficult to write. I realize there will be people in my life who won’t care about the amends I try to make and, as Michael says, who won’t care that I want to atone. I wonder, though, will I be like Eleanor Rigby writing this document…only for no one to read it or to care?
- Calm It Down Podcast:
“Use regret as a teacher, not as a tormentor.”
1. Regret means you care. If you didn’t care, it wouldn’t hurt.
2. You can’t change the past, but you can change the pattern. That’s where your power lies. 3. Talk to your past with self compassion.
