CBB 9am class. I got confirmation in class. It was an emotionally heavy class on unforgiveness. Many women shared their stories – what they did to get here – and the unforgiveness they have for themselves and others that were involved in their crimes. I listened to their crimes and their struggles. One woman was extremely angry and can’t forgive the man who shot her daughter, who he was dating. It was draining to listen to and the tension was high in the room. Another woman spoke how she can’t forgive herself for what she’s done and no one wants to be around her. Our teacher said how important it is to recognize how we affect others through our own unforgiveness and how it can be a problem in others’ lives. She said that when she’s feeling low and having a bad day, she seeks out “this one person who brightens my whole day,” and pointed to me, “that little redhead girl. Whenever I see her, I can’t help but smile.” She said how my character and positivity is so bright. I didn’t expect this. It was confirmation that, regardless of people who don’t want me around them when they’re feeling down as I’m “too bubbly” much of the time, there are people out there who DO want a positive person to run to when they feel sad or to celebrate with them when they have something to celebrate. I’m glad I’m not naturally the kind of person who will help someone wallow and exacerbate their low feelings. Hearing my teacher, this was everything I needed to keep me on track with God’s purpose for me.
