Manifesting and believing in the power of NOW. Create images in your head that show you exactly what you want in life TODAY. I am free, I am successful, I am wealthy, I am content, I am fulfilled, I am married, I am strong, beautiful and calm. My heart is the center, the balance point for my emotions, my intellect and my soul. My heart is SAFE. I am a powerful, sensitive, creative, competent, intelligent, wise adult. I am grown. I can walk away, speak up, say how I feel. I know how to live on my own.
For so many years I was truly lost. I was unable to make wise choices, due to my lifestyle and drug/alcohol use. I had a clouded vision of reality. I didn’t have hope, or inner peace, or really any desire to do much with my life. Throughout these past three and a half years in prison I have chosen to make changes in my life that have made me full of joy. I’ve given up drugs and alcohol, found sobriety. I have started following a wholesome lifestyle; working out, eating healthy, doing yoga, running, meditating, reading self help books and staying away from people whom I know aren’t good influences. I’ve started college and recently finished my first college course.
A lot of people lose hope when they come to prison, they get hooked on drugs that run through the prisons regularly, they don’t see a future because they don’t know how to accept their present, their NOW. It is a sad and emotional environment if you allow it to be. What a lot of people don’t understand is that ultimately the choice is theirs. I think for me, something clicked.. It is possibly the fact that I lost my mom who suffered from alcohol and drug abuse in the beginning of my sentence and realized quickly that if I continued on in this lifestyle, I, too, would end up passing away at a young age, living a life full of distress, frustration and misery. Most of what I’ve learned is that I deserve to life a better life. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to have a family, a career, and live in peace. My goal is to share these same things with other people so that they too can live a more wholesome life. In here it’s sometimes challenging to share these ideas with people, but I refuse to give up. I am an advocate for healthy living, sobriety, and wellness and I am grateful to be apart of such a big movement.
