1 Aug 2023 (Day #4234)
From the beginning, I adopted Toltec warrior philosophy – each day brought 2 choices, strength or misery. I choose strength daily. From that philosophy, I realized I had 2 choices to guide the path towards my future – thrive, or survive. I have chosen to thrive. Each class, group, and therapy session is an action towards thriving, an investment in myself and my future. Strength and thriving are not easy choices to adhere to and live by, and the prison environment compounds the difficulty. I don’t know that previously I could have, or would have, made either choice, and therapy combined with treatment and encouragement from my support network has been beneficial to my self-esteem, self-confidence, and courage to help me make those choices daily.
What I’ve done is not who I am. Who I am now is not who I used to be.