10/21/2023 (Day #4315)
Internal obstacle, overcoming it…
The other substantial internal obstacle I face on a recurring basis is being my own harshest critic. It’s a residual unhealthy and unproductive characteristic from as far back as I can remember. Ultimately, I’ve held myself to higher expectations than anyone else has, and “old me” got proficient at turning that inward unhealthily by confirmation bias and self-sabotage. I’ve learned a lot about expectations, how to manage them by utilizing goals, and how to be more forgiving of myself through mindfulness, rational challenges, and rational thinking. I’m pleased with the progress I’ve made to overcome this internal obstacle, and that progress affords me a positive outlook for continued progress as I keep working on it. I embrace the continuous learning and growth that comes from it, especially when I’m able to overcome, even partially, obstacles that have been in my path.
Mindful and considerate of the catalyst for my work and growth, and remorseful for my behavior.